My
First Encounter with Thorr
by Druella
Dierking
I will first
introduce myself briefly. My name is Druella Dierking I am 17
years old. I have been a pagan for 5 years. I was first
attracted to Wicca but felt unfulfilled due to the fact that I
have no Celtic ancestry. I decided I wanted to know the Gods and
rituals of my ancestors. I learned about Asatru as many do
online, and became a "Norse Wiccan". Slowly I
converted to Asatru. At the time I had this experience with
Thorr I had been coming out of a very dark time in my life. I
was coming away from a very manipulative "friend" and
the drugs she supplied.
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It was a Thursday night, I was online and I noticed that the
power was fluttering, I ignored it at first but I began to see
lightning out of the corner of my eye. I had my music up so I
didn't hear the thunder. Well after seeing the lightning I tried
to turn my computer of and it decided to make all sorts of
beeping noises at which I just flipped the off switch (I know I
should have waited for the ok screen but I was impatient). It
was then that I noticed the booming thunder.
I thing that I must mention here is that before this time I
really disliked thunder and lightning storms the frightened me.
Yet I was unafraid of this booming thunder.
I opened the door
to see the sky flash with light a bright as day and I was
spellbound. I grabbed a nearby blanket and headed outside. At
first I just stood under the overhang out of the rain and wind
but as the storm continued I went out on to the porch. It was
here were I felt Thorr. As I stepped out into the rain I gently
whispered Thorr into the wind at which time I was answered with
thunder it boomed and reverberated for many minutes all up and
down the bay.
I opened my eyes and looked into the sky and realized I had
never before even tried to understand or appreciate Thorr. (I
know that may seem odd because he is one of the major Gods but I
do not know why I had done this. Perhaps out of some arrogant
notion that being that he is a God of violence
and very masculine I did not need him. I truly did not
understand.) But as I stood there I knew I had to do something
so I sang a song. And as I sang I was filled with... joy? Words
cannot describe the actual feeling. So I loudly
heiled the Gods "Heil the Aesir... Heil the Vanir...Heil
Mighty Thorr," and as I spoke the last word my greeting was
punctuated with lightning and thunder. I was in awe at this
beautiful night. I began reciting everything I knew about Thorr,
not much I'll admit, but everything I knew. And overtime I would
finish praising Thorr lightning would light the sky and Thunder,
oh the thunder would fill me to my very soul. I continued for a
couple of hours singing and praising the all Gods and Goddesses.
I really felt I needed to pour Libation so I ran inside quickly
mixed the closest thing to mead I could find (vodka, water,
honey, sugar and sweet basil... Again I will concede ignorance
to the fine art of mead making) and I ran outside. I lifted my
cup to the Aesir and Vanir and again to Mighty Thorr, I sipped
(It did not taste like vodka or anything that I have ever
tasted, it tasted beautiful.) and then I poured it into the
earth. As this was happening the Lightning and Thunder
continued. I asked for blessing in my quest to learn from the
Gods and stood in the rain and I just sang.
After the storm quieted down a bit I went inside drenched from
the rain. As I walked by the mirror in my room I did a double
take, I did not recognize myself. I lay the wet blanket on my
bed lit some incense and I meditated on Thorr and on how I had
not known him before. I watched a few last splashes of thunder
in the sky before I finally slept. Previous to this event I had
been feeling very lost spiritually but I feel that my path was
illuminated.
Thanks for having a forum and listening.
Heil the Aesir
Heil the Vanir
In Troth
Druella Dierking
